Months 4/5/6/7/8 – Wobbly is My Balance

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As I am reminded while attempting a tree pose on this rainy Sunday: my balance is a little shaky.

I have been wobbly for most of my life and even more so in the last few months. Here I am, walking on a very thin wire, making it to the other side, only just, and pinching myself. I am still alive. I didn’t fall.

Small catastrophes collide with major family adjustments, and my career path expands and encompasses things I would have been frightened to even try not so long ago. This is growth, I remind myself; this is a new normal and new normality takes time to sink in, for me.  To be still, balanced, is a concept that eludes me, both mentally and physically.

And while I muse and deal with adult life as I think I know it, my manuscript lays there, untouched (bar some editing scribbles), my short stories are still in my folder, not being read, nor sent to any competitions, and this little corner of the internet is being neglected. Now this is familiar!

Let’s break the circle, shall we.

There is strength is my wobble, believe it or not. Fire in all things fragile, and this strength needs direction. And I need discipline.

Who’s with me?

First, let me master the art of the tree pose.

 

 

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Month 2/3 – Happy

Hello my dearest reader(s). I know we are well into March now, although the weather is firmly set into winter grounds still, so this is a big-ish update, and a surprise:

Hell yes. Victory Rolls, the reading, is live. Enjoy, comment, tweet me, etc. I am very proud of this story and I hope you’ll like it too!

February has been packed with surprises, the biggest of them all being…

I COMPLETED A FIRST DRAFT FOR LIGHTS (working title, obvs.)

I did it. It’s imperfect and needs all the work and care, but gosh, it’s done. After five years!

How did this happen, I hear you ask? Turns out that if you lock me in a spacious room full of fellow writers, unlimited tea and coffee and biscuits, and if you turn off the wifi for seven hours, I work like a madwoman. All credit goes to these everyday heroes for running monthly retreats and for motivating me with pastries and gold stars (shiny!)

I have put the manuscript away for now and will start the inevitable tearing down/revisions in a month.

The other news is that I’ve got my first ever shortlist for an English language story via Creative Writing Ink. It’s such a confidence boost! I am aiming for three submissions per month to various competitions, there is no better way to hone my skills.

That’s all for now, folks! Let’s catch up in April if you fancy?

 

 

 

 

Month 1 – Light is coming

 

Thank God January is over

So we’re 30 something days into 2018 and my goals are doing okay, despite a cold /bronchitis that brought me down for a few weeks. I usually get very excited about January – there’s the promise of new beginnings, and there’s my birthday. This year I lost the spark a little bit. Blame it on the germs, or the constant darkness after 4pm.

We’re seeing the light at the end of the tunnel though.

On to the good things!

I finished the writing course, enjoyed it, and wrote a few shorts. I am very happy with some of the results, and have sent them to three competitions so far. I am obviously bracing myself for impact (the rejections), but it’s a step in the right direction.

This course also taught me that not everything I write should be read. With that in mind, I am giving myself permission to experiment and fail with Lights, which has a great premise but is still a draft in progress, for the fifth year running. I am determined to finish it, but it might not land on your kindle. And that’s okay. I have other plans for you readers (cue enigmatic music).

Next month: my first writing retreat! More tales of conquering fears! Puppies! (That’s a maybe)

 

 

Oh, hello there

I guess it’s time for another yearly post!

Gosh, 2017 did not go to plan at all. But that’s okay.

I have somewhat neglected my writing for the past (two) year(s). I guess hitting my thirties sent me into panic mode and, while I was frantically trying to find some sense of purpose and security by chewing my way into the corporate world, my little stories got forgotten in my old laptop.

But now that I have successfully proven to myself that, yes, I can sustain a career somewhere (hello, Human Resources, my safe haven of policies keeping my need for control in check), it’s time to finish what I started, namely my two works in progress.

And I have a plan.

First, kick starting new habits. I have enrolled in Writers HQ new online course so that should keep me busy and focused in January.

Second, keeping you, my fellow readers, updated. I am not too fussed with newsletters – most of us just delete the damn thing as soon as it lands in our mailboxes – so I fully pledge to write a new blog post every month.

Third, finish the god damn manuscript that keeps haunting me since I first wrote some words in a notebook on a cold October morning four years ago. I am not even kidding. Finishing a first draft is still incredibly difficult/painful for me but I need to stick to it if I ever want to get better at this writing thing, right?

Fourth, more flash fiction/short stories,  because it’s fun and improves my humble craft.

In other news, if you are curious about how I’ve spent my 2017, my Instagram is full of bad pictures and snippets of my life. If you don’t want to click but are still curious, highlights below:

  • Liars’ League Hong Kong picked my short story Victory Rolls for a live reading back in summer. There is no YouTube video or anything, but it’s still a massive achievement for me, and you have to take my word for it. I would love to get that story somewhere and will enter it for submissions this year so keep your fingers crossed.
  • am a certified HR professional – I’ve spent a big chunk of the year writing assignments and performing mock interviews and performance reviews. And then passed Level 3. I loved it.
  • I sang with one of my favourite bands. With their singer. On stage. It was not planned. The lights blinded me. It was fun.
  • I took up sewing. No injury or domestic incident so far.

So, that’s all for now. I guess I’ll see you next month!

 

 

 

 

 

2017

ready

I was planning on posting a 2016 retro post, then I decided against it – I am too nostalgic, too focused on dissecting the past for my own good.

We are a few hours into 2017 already,  I don’t know what the future holds. I don’t know if this year will be as challenging as 2016 was,  or if it will be a positive, radiant one. Or an in-between. Or something else entirely.

I don’t know, and that doesn’t scare me. I am ready. I am ready to work more, I am ready to produce decent words and good stories.

 

Let’s do this, 2017. Let’s see what you’ve got.

 

Happy New Year everyone, let’s make that one count.

 

 

 

Freefalling

i haven’t published anything since 2014. I focused on my first novella- length, Lights, and did a lot of things, words and non-words related. It’s been a packed couple of years.

I am very happy to be able to share new stories with you. Lights will be available next year, and I am very proud of this project. To give you a taste of what’s to come, here’s Freefalling. It’s a story set over Christmas, focusing on Niall, one of the lead characters in Lights. It raises questions that will be answered in 2017 so keep your eyes peeled!

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Special thank you to Stephen Hamilton for his patience and proofreading skills. I couldn’t do this without you.

Freefalling is available via smashwords for free. Enjoy and don’t hesitate to post a review on smashwords and Goodreads!

 

Happy Holidays!

PS: can we talk about how awesome my new banner is? Thank you Elizabeth Barone! This woman is a magician.

WIP – A soundtrack

I have been working on this manuscript on and off for almost three years now, and as you can notice, the little bar at the right side of the blog is progressing a little.

I thought I would set the mood with the playlist I use when writing the story of Meira, Aidan, Niall and co. Dark fantasy calls for a lot of Zola Jesus and a little bit of The National, in my opinion.

Blurb and finished draft celebration soon, I promise. Before the end of the year at least.

Maybe.

Enjoy.